Time for a new beginning.

Will be starting a new blog at..

www.xanga.com/discostick

xoxo

Me want.

I'm sitting right in front of the tv right now watching the olympics while fooling around with polyvore hehe. Just like what the title suggested, i want the clothes, shoes, bags and everything on polyvore. I've been on polyvore since 3 hours ago!

How i wish i had abit of doraemon's genes haha. I'd have a secret magic pouch on my tummy which will be invisible, cos if i have a pouch on my tummy it'll look plain wierd. So, back to my ramblings, i'll be able to pull out everything and anything i want from my magic invisible pouch. Just imagine, today i want a certain outfit and poof i'll get it. Oooh nice nice nice. Buuuut that will never happen

Anyhoos, allow me to show you 3 outfits i pulled together while fiddling around with Kevan's laptop..

Outfit number one.

This outfit i will wear during dayouts with friends or the boyfriend. Perfect for hanging out wherever and just chilling around with the ocassional gossips that every girl does with her friends hehe.

Loving the vintage chanel alot. To me, those snickers hanging off the necklace looks so funky. And those shoes? OOoh like, love, luurrrvve

Outfit number 2.

This outfit is the perfect shopping outfit. In other words, outtings with the ladies. The long skirt makes it practical for me to jump when i can't reach the clothes or squat down to get whatever i need hehe. Plus i get to sit however i like when we chill at cafe's or go food hunting like we always do

Again, i gotsta have me vintage chanel. This time i went tan with it hehe. I totally heart this skirt cos i find it really unique. I like how there's movement in it because of the design. Pair with it a simple tank and some sweet sandals and i'm ready to go.

Outfit number 3.

This one i'd definitely wear for a night out. Perfect for a good dinner, followed by drinks.

The loose fit of the dress makes it ideal for dinner cause i can eat like mad and no one will be able to see my bulging tummy haha! Perfect. And i really want to get a balenciaga bag real bad. However, there ain't no balenciaga stores in Sydney, let alone Australia. Hmm but then i don't even have the ka-ching to buy one, so no need to think so far haha. One day, one day..

So yes, those were one of the few favourite outfits of mine  Rightos. I need to go now. Kevan is nagging and i think i want to watch miami ink hehe.

Chao chao!

xoxo

Yoo-hoo!

Ok, so i know i have been MIA like forever and i'm sorry hehe. Somehow i barely go online when i'm back home. Wait, i think i should've said i never go online when i'm back home haha. Sorry?

I promise i will update this blog of mine as there are quite a few pictures and stuff to be put up here. Outings from home and also the things i've been doing eversince i came back to Sydney. Last week, i went to the Sydney sexpo. It's the same sexpo that Yiing went to last year, im sure. And the day after i got to see the Cirque Du Soleil. Awesome, amazing, jaw dropping and entertaining as hell, if i may say so.

Ah yes, remember how i was saying i might switch to blogspot? I think i shall stay with xanga hehe. Too lazy to switch. But i need to figure out how to change the damn theme. Usually there's a link that says edit theme but somehow with the big ass pink header, it ain't there no more. Blasted pink thing. So until i figure out how to work my way around that, looks like things will have to remain how they are right now hehe.

Anyhoos, i shall leave that for tomorrow cause i have a 9am class tomorrow that i'm trying not to miss.

Oh yea, expect some pick-chas coming your way

xoxo

Heeeell to the no!

It's karma. For sure.

2 days ago i was suppose to be studying but my itchy fingers decided to take matters on their own. Because of my retarded self, i started changing and fooling around with my theme and wanted to change the header.

BUT

Having no more than 1/10 of IT brain cells, 10 being the highest, i screwed up. LIKE DUUUUH! A moron would've seen that coming

Hence the reason why my blog is now FUGLY as it is sporting this "test" theme i did a loooong timr ago. Ugh the horror of that hugh pink thing there.

Looks like my blog is gonna look like shit for awhile since i have exams. Hmm im thinking of switching to blogspot after this. Will see how things go, but i think there's a 75% chance i will.

Anyhoos, sorry i have to murder your eyes if you are reading this right now haha. Sorry sorry

I have to study now.

xoxo

The heartache that will never go away

Time.

Listening to the song got me thinking alot. The only thing standing in the way between you and all of us, is time. And it's within this period of time that we're all suppose to find that joy and love before we can ever see you again.

All i know is that time pasts by so quickly. It's almost 2 months since your passing and yet, the heartache still seems to be lingering around somehow. I'm certainly not in denial but a few days ago i went through all of the old pictures and for some reason, i still don't understand how all this happened just like that. Thinking back on how we had so much fun together during a levels makes me so happy that i got to spend almost every single day with you but at the same time, it hurts so bad to know that there won't be anymore in the future. I can physically feel my heart sink and ache at the same time. It's as though my heart is being suppressed by negative emotions and inner pain.

It's like what Aunty Farah said. Never in a million years would anyone our age think about death. That's so true. Till today i look forward to seeing you when i go home. Not knowing that you'll be there to greet me still surprises me.

I know i said that i will stay strong and not shed a tear anymore. Well, i can safely say i didn't till i saw the video Zyl made you for his presentation today. It's times like these that i feel so selfish. I just wish i could have just one more chance to see you again. To hear your laughter. To give you a hug. Just once more.

Now the only way i can find you is by closing my eyes and speaking to you from the heart. Just picturing you in my mind still brings out the tears but they're not tears of sadness but tears of joy. The joy of having you in my memories. The joy of having had the chance to know you and most certainly, the joy of having had the experience of everything that we've gone through

You left a  mark on everyone of us. Although my wound has yet to heal, i believe it will in time.

xoxo